suicide
October 18, 2009
- We knew, my older brother Matt and I, that my father had enlisted in the Air Force in 1963. He told us that he had wanted to get away from home, out from under his father, and so, instead of waiting to be drafted, he simply marched downtown and enlisted. My grandfather had served in the Air Force twenty years before, during World War II, stationed in India. I don’t know what he did there—the ...
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October 18, 2009
- October 18 MY HEROINE The corpse that is my childhood is mine to protect from the wolves and rats of denial and collusion. The infant who commits suicide in self-defense is my heroine. The pure thinking of an uncluttered mind seizes on the only possible way for me to survive. Her death at her own hand is my rescue. If the bad had killed her I would have died with her. In her plan, ...
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October 8, 2009
- Today I’m posting a guest blog by Laura McHale Holland because she has so much to share with us. Suicide is something hard for most of us to talk about. We don't want to even go there - especially when it involves the mother of young children. I appreciate Laura's honesty, and I am sorry for her pain, although I cannot know what she feels. Her poignant mother memoir speaks for itself. I ...
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September 27, 2009
- It was the story of two deaths. One sister, mad, alone and despairing, stood, arms outstretched, motionless on the track. The rail, as rails must, sang under the weight of the train, and the sister, bereft of song, stopped singing forever. The other sister, later, curious, leaned too far over the railing of the trestle hoping to see where her sister had finished her song. In the morning, ...
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September 26, 2009
- September 26 SCREAMING LETHARGY The screaming lethargy of being alive after many years of wanting something else, the exhaustion of pulsing, breathing, waves and waves of thinking. Yet as tired as I am, I am. Here without a doubt, I stand. No crawling for I have not fallen, no climbing for I have reached the plain. I wait for the rain to wash over me, the truth to run through me, ...
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September 22, 2009
- Certain people, events and occurrences stick with me and no matter what I do, I can’t forget about them. The death of three men in Bristol, England is something I’ve never forgotten. They died a few months apart some time in the late eighties. They weren't murdered and it wasn’t accidental. All three committed suicide. What drew my attention to these men was the circumstances of their ...
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August 14, 2009
- 2:35 PM PDT, August 14, 2009 What a clever sentence. It's use intrigues me since it has zillions of possibilities. At the moment it's tied in with Obama and the people who are fed up with his high spending sprees and a health care bill that is nonsensical. But I forsee a broader scope that needs to be addressed that we can tag with the above line. 60 billion people in America are sexual ...
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June 23, 2009
- I am elated! We have a new Lamplighter Chapter in forming in Australia. That makes 41 Lamplighter Chapters in six countries. Take a look at our website at www.thelamplighters.org. My goal is one day to have Lamplighter Chapters all over the world. The biggest problem is getting people to come out of hiding. And I know what that feels like. My father raped me when I was 13, ...
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May 25, 2009
- I recently read the following article from Huffington Post written by women and children's advocate and author, Cheryl Saban. The sentence, "Did you know that girls aged 15 to 19 years old account for 50% of victims of sexual abuse worldwide" jumped out at me. To read the complete article use the following link.http://www.huffingtonpost.com/cheryl-saban ...
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May 18, 2009
- Once upon a time a man was born, he lived and he died. It was an unspectacular life by any estimation, yet thirteen generations later one of his progeny became the first man to walk on the moon. I do not know who this man is, yet I know he existed.We cannot know how important our lives are. We may look at ourselves and say with all sincerity, "I am just some person trying to make my way in ...
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