pyramid mirage

As a child:

• between the clothes through to the roof attic where starlings made nests in the gutter and sparked night
• under the basement stairs, wooden ones, could see the ankles of mother coming to pull out laundry
• on a swing, twisting right and left, pear tree leaves just where my feet could reach going up
• on the floor, legs crossed, school uniform draped over knees, polite and modest
• under the sideboard that held the turntable, stroking cat, learning to purr
• on the wood porch, back against the rail, jacks, losing, singing
• the tree on the quince side of the garden with a stool sized stone, leaves spin silver, dirt crushed with fingers
• step ladder in the shed
• choir loft, second row, soprano
• middle seat at dining room table, girls' side

Teen:

• front of classes, alphabetical order
• blanket under walnut tree, fingers blackened with skin tar
• on bed, right under bedside bookshelf, leaves of grass again, illustrated
• swinging feet off edge of tub
• front porch watching cars, naming names, lying about what i know
• end chair, dining room, homework spread, spanish, easy, math, crying
• back seat of car, need a window, thighs stuck to vinyl, singing silently while rosary is prayed
• away from my father
• chair in front of standing sister, mocking new hairstyles like magazine girls
• cat in lap
• beads around ankles
• not on a car hood outside the dairy queen 
• flat stone edge of waterfall at the end of Old Town
• lying back on carpet Mission Impossible
• Hathaway tombstone 1882-1957 mescaline 1970
• in a wheelchair
• in a wheelchair
• no motion

and 

• hate chairs hate hate chairs hate chairs
• windowsills in college classes
• legs out into aisles
• library carrels
• on palms, elbows on table, papers spread
• on bicycle, everyday
• first office job, feet under desk, calendar hiding poem
• stone wall central park rebel runs with the white dog, new york times folded to crossword
• airplane seats to lebanon, bahamas, guatemala, italy, holland, switzerland, spain, ecuador, yemen, saudi arabia, jordan, egypt, algeria, morroco, germany, dominican republic, haiti, venuzuela, egypt, egypt again, egypt again, lebanon, jordan, Saudi Arabia, yemen, again, mexico, canada, turkey, italy again
• pick up truck hawk lifting in headlights rabbit in hand
• station wagon canoe crown to waters in colorado, arizona, north dakota, nebraska, minnesota, missouri, idaho
• blue datsun b210 crossing country I 80, diverging for real food in small towns
• front seat of canoe boundary waters, sciactic burn down left leg
• farm table, football in background, in laws in farm town, left behind
• on teaching desk rather than behind it, talking and walking, sitting and leaning, learning
• horse across sand, pyramids mirage
• picnic table, campgrounds, you name it
• across durango's back, watering her fur, fear
• quad press, flye bench, dips
• writing in New Mexico, wood stove, deer crush sage
• canyon end, falling toward blue, green, red striped walls

now:

• laptop burning lap crosslegged on futon against chiro's recommendation
• plastic chaise on deck yard purple pink white blossoms
• spin seat, head of class, lifting bench, right side of dragon boat
• beside anthony
• on floor vona poem
• yoshi's second row middle table roy hargrove, ledisi, stanley clarke, marcus miller
• cafe, unnamed, writing wireless, soy capp
• love nails
• durango's old spot on couch in garden office, still warm and shallow
• not in therapy
• not in religion
• not alone
• not in school
• under a roof
• moon shifts to west windows sit up in bed