This Time I Need Some of "Your" Encouragement
I'm so grateful to have the opportunity to be maintaining a blog, here on 'Red Room'. Since, I'm somewhat of a novice there are some things I don't quite understand as yet. Each time I login, I can see how many have read each entry...whether it's from my blog or a short story. This blog, although fairly new has had well over 800 'hits', yet, I've not received one comment. Needless to say, I'm very curious to know who is reading the things I write. It's almost like waiting for Christmas to find out...it's exciting.
Those of you that have read my entry titled...Heartache at the Hands of the "Church", know that I had been in an abusive marriage for almost 25 years. You would also know that most all that time I was living outside the USA. Once I returned permanently, the bottom dropped out of my life. I ended up seriously injured, and had to live in a shelter for domestic abuse victims. I am very happily remarried to the most amazing guy on the planet...we married in 2006.
Due to the level of abuse, I have significant health issues. It seems like I'm fighting a war on three fronts. I have lesions on both sides of my brain. Tests are inconclusive...yet, MS has not been ruled out. It's also been said that some of these lesions are most likely the result of repeated "head trauma" over the years while living in an abusive marriage.
Recently, I was referred to a cardiologist due to complication in another area. The doctor ordered a whole hosts of tests to be done. After all tests results were in, I was not prepared for the results. Without going into much detail, I met with the cardiac surgeon on Sept 10. The problem is, I don't know exactly how much damage has already occurred. Can it be fixed? My husband is a medical professional. He has been trying to find research regarding my diagnosis. I can see the concern in his eyes...those unspoken words between husband and wife. The other issue is the fact there has not been much research and definitive findings into this particular problem. This has caused much frustration and anxiety for both of us. All this, plus the constant pain has invaded every area of my life has caused great frustration. We are believing for a real breakthrough. My main goal is to regain my health…and I have a husband that is incredible in helping me attain that goal. Yet, it seems we have so far to go…so, I’m trying to take “one step at a time”.
Yesterday, September 26 I had a battery of tests performed before my scheduled surgical date, which will be October 8. As I stated at the beginning of this post, I know this blog is being read, but it sure would be a boost of encouragement to know exactly ‘who’ is reading it. To those of you that pray, I covet your prayers at this time.
Kindest Regards,
Michelle
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Luqman Qadi says:
Faith cometh by hearing
Michelle
After reading your despair, I could not help but to feel your pain of uncertainties. Your abrusive marriage surly left a scar that only what we can't see(The Almighty)can heal. I went through a grave despair executed upon me through a marriage that scared me for life, but through all that I experienced, I was able to raise above that plight by 'Believing'. Regardless of the extent of your problems in this life, your victory lies not on the exterior of self, but the ansewer and solution to your 'Victory'...is in YOU!
Be of Good Courage
Luqman Qadi
Michelle 2005 says:
To: Luqman Qadi
I am profoundly grateful for your kind comment. You are absolutely correct in saying that only through believing in the Almighty will I raise above all this. It's been one step at a time...but progress is being made.
Again, thank you so very much for your encouragement...it was sorely needed.
Kindest Regards,
Michelle
"Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere" Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.